Today was my first day back at work since DH died. I woke up around 4:45 a.m., and I had set the alarm for 5:10. I got up at 5:00 to give myself plenty of time to do everything I wanted to do before I had to leave the house at 7:00, and I made my deadline--with a shower, breakfast, feeding the dog and the cat, makeup and dressing, and gathering up everything I wanted to take with me. I also sat down and picked up one of my devotional Bibles--the one with the Oswald Chambers writings interspersed with the daily Bible readings. I knew I needed to read BEFORE I went to school...putting on my armor, as it were.
The Old Testament reading for today (I started where the bookmark was from the last time I used this particular devotional Bible) had the story about the men holding up Moses's arms during a particular battle. As long as they held up his arms, the children of Israel were winning, but if they let down his arms, the battle began to turn against them. I sometimes laugh at the messages God sends to us, and this was one of those times. God knew I needed to be reminded that I have a lot of people holding up my arms during this battle with my grief and heartache--I have friends, family, coworkers, and even people I've "met" on various Internet message boards. They are all holding up my arms, and if I start to depend on my own strength, the battle will begin to turn against me.
I went by Hobby Lobby today and stocked up--again--on albums since they are half-price this week. I bought a lot of mini-albums the last time to make gift albums with the baby's pictures. The ones I bought this time are to make albums for DH's brothers, parents, and aunts. I have larger albums already started for his sons with full-sized pictures; I'll use wallet-sized prints for the other albums. I took hundreds (no, I am not exaggerating...I come from a long line of photographers) of pictures of DH while we were married, and I have a good assortment from his "good years" to share with his family. I was weak--I bought just one more batch of alphabet stickers...when will THAT madness end?
Thought for today: Does a Christian really NEED a radar detector?
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I just wanted to say I am so sorry that you lost your husband. I have been reading your posts each time, but wasn't sure what to say or how to say it. I am so glad to see you moving on in such a positive way, you are an inspiration.
Your posts are excellent on such a sad subject, Susan.
On the HL purchases, YEAH! Get scrappin! I wish I had one of those near me.....or maybe NOT.
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